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It’s July 2024 and a handful of months ago something changed. I remember telling my therapist that for the first time in a long time I felt ready to do life, not simply let it happen to me. Coming out of hibernation so to speak.

The thing is though, there is no rulebook for life. No matter how put together someone seems, it’s all bullshit. There are times where we feel in control, ready to cease the day, know what’s to come and then there are moments where all that seems like an impossibility. There is a saying that goes something like, “if want to make God laugh, tell him your plans”. If He is the man with the plan, then I think the Universe is his cheeky sister with a sick sense of humor. She throws the wrench that changes the game in a way no one is prepared for.

The joke in all this though is it isn’t quite that simple. The mental battle persists every day where one has to actively choose themselves. I have to actively choose to live, not only exist and my gosh is that harder than words can convey. What is someone supposed to do with hopes and dreams they have no idea how to bring to life, or if they are uncertain those are really the things they actually want?

I guess this is where this site comes in. I Owe It To Myself is me finally giving back to me what I deserve. Creativity, interest, a hobby and a love that feeds my soul even just the tiniest bit. So while I have no idea what I’m doing as I’m just waking up for this new season, I’m hopeful. And hope, is a very powerful thing.